An Amazing Frienship... Gone
Very recently, I lost a very good friend. He and I had known each other our entire lives, and we hung out everyday. We knew everything about each other, and even if we didn’t want to admit it, we were definitely best friends. One day, all of a sudden, he flipped out on me. We just started talking online to each other, like any other day in the past. But he just snapped! He said that he hated me and he called me really bad names. I k had a friend over, so I thought it was just his friend typing, messing around with me. But when it continued, calling me those horrible names, I just couldn’t believe it. I refused to believe that my closest friend, who I had known and trusted my entire life, would call me such things. I didn’t know what to do, how to react. I just sat there watching all of the messages coming in, wanting it all to stop, for me to wake up as if it was just a dream. But it wasn’t, and I knew it. I didn’t do anything, didn’t try to stop him, or even fight back, and let out some of my tensions. Right after our conversation, I was only thinking about revenge, and how I would lash out, and get him back for everything he did. But later, after I had cooled off and thought about it, I still didn’t know what to do, or what I should’ve done. I still don’t. But I do know what I did was wrong. Even if I can’t get us back together, even to a point where I can say, “Hi” to him when I pass him in the hall at school, I just want to know why. I want to know why he snapped all of a sudden, why he started out in that horrible rage. I just want to know what I, or maybe someone else, did to make him hate me so much. Now, he won’t talk to me. If I try to instant message him, he won’t talk back (and he probably doesn’t even read it). If I call him, he doesn’t pick up. If I approach him at school, he just walks away. I don’t know what I should’ve done. I just regret not trying enough to calm him down or something. It’s just heartbreaking for me to know that such a huge part of my life is gone forever.
